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Evander is struggling with guilt and anxiety as he prepares to apologize to his brothers for a serious mistake he made. Though he has already confessed to some close people like Angie, Cami, Ann, and his dad, he knows the rest of the club will be much harder to face. Many of the brothers treat him with disdain or pity, and only a few show any kindness. Evander feels he deserves their anger and is haunted by memories of how his actions affected those around him, especially Karma, Psy.cho, Dragon, CG, and Angie, who suffered deeply.

He recalls how Karma patiently waited for Blythe’s return, setting up romantic nights and hoping she would come back, while Psy.cho was ready to confront her but was held back by Evander himself. Dragon never believed Blythe had truly abandoned them, and CG was devastated, nearly giving up on life. Angie’s suicide attempt hit Evander hard, and though he wanted to confess then, he was too afraid. His cowardice weighs heavily on him.

Finally, Evander summons the courage to apologize to Dragon, admitting how badly he messed up and how sorry he is. Dragon listens carefully and, while acknowledging the pain caused, also points out that others in the club share some blame for not acting sooner. He offers Evander his forgiveness, hoping the rest of the club will follow. Psy.cho supports Dragon’s stance and jokes about Evander’s feelings for Blythe, encouraging him to make things right.

As the conversation ends, Dragon and Psy.cho notice Blythe’s playful teasing of Evander, hinting that she is becoming bolder with him. Evander secretly enjoys this attention but remains cautious, waiting for Karma’s permission to move forward. Despite the ongoing challenges, there is a sense that healing and reconciliation may be possible if Evander can continue to prove himself and earn the club’s forgiveness.

144: Apologies

Evander’s P.O.V.

~ A few days later ~

Sh.it, sh.it, sh.it.

I can do this. I got this. Like Bly said, just be honest. They deserve to know that I’m truly sorry. Even if they don’t believe me. I need to say it to them. Because they deserve it. Even if they tell me they hate my fucking guts.

I blew out a breath, trying to psych myself up as I watched Ps.ycho go over some kind of schedule with a couple prospects. I haven’t apologized to any of the guys yet. I’ve talked to Angie, Cami and Ann, Dad, and a few of the old timers that know the truth. They seemed to forgive me a little easier than I expected them too. I mean, they were all pi.ssed, gave me sh.it, made me feel like sh.it, but in the end, they told me that everyone makes mistakes.

But I know it won’t be that easy with the rest of the brothers. Diesel’s the only one who’s offered me a smile in passing. Slider, Viper, and Rabid usually make a show of teasing me in front of everyone. Not all in good fun either and they know it. Joker ignores me completely. Rubble and Gunner give me looks of pity, but don’t offer anything else. And the rest of the guys that know the truth, or at least, more of the truth than the rest, all give me looks of pure disdain. They push me around worse than the first time I prospected. The only ones that go easy on me are the ones with ol‘ ladies. Which I suspect is more the ladies doing.

I deserve it. I know that. I deserve worse. Hell, I don’t even deserve to be here. I got off way easier than I should have already. I keep trying to think about the things Blythe tells me. That it was a mistake, that I didn’t know, that I feel guilty and I’m trying now. I try to keep in mind that she has a point. But then everything else comes rushing back.

The night that they all expected Blythe to come back. Karma would never admit it out loud, but he had planned out a whole night for her and us. He had flowers, a room set up with candles, all her favorite foods from her favorite places. He sat in that room that night until the candles burned out. And he waited, ready to set it all back up at the drop of a dime should she show up, for two straight weeks. Night and day. He still did his job, but he waited. He hoped. And I watched. Silently.

I remember how badly Psy.cho wanted to ride over to Daniel’s place to confront Blythe. I talked him out of it. Said if she wanted to come back, then she would. I caught him sneaking off to his

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bike over 50 times in the course of two months. I was so nervous that he was going to do it that I distracted him. Told him Blythe wasn’t sh.it. Fed him alcohol and women like it was nothing. I just wanted to remind him of the life of a biker. I wanted him to forget about Blythe. I was so stupid.

Dragon wasn’t here for me to see anything, but I know how he felt. He didn’t understand it. Thought something was wrong. I heard him arguing with Karma several times about how it didn’t make sense. He said that even if she hated us, there was no way she’d cut off Angie like that. Karma tried to tell him what Daniel was saying about her, but Dragon called bullsh.it. He was under

contract already at that time, so he couldn’t go look for her himself. But he never believed that our

girl wouldn’t come home to us. And he was right.

CG was the worst. The dead look in his eyes still haunts me. I remember going to his room or his parents‘ house and pulling him out of bed when things were really bad. I remember shaving the man’s face because he gave up on everything in life. He was a sad, empty shell of a person. I remember the guilt of it had gotten so bad one time that I puked, blaming it on a hangover.

And then there was Angie. I know she’s forgiven me, but… I was there when Dad found her after she swallowed all those pills. He was telling me how worried he was about her. I could see the pain and helplessness in his tired eyes. I almost came clean then. The words were right at the tip of my tongue. And then we heard a thump from their bedroom. We were already standing just outside the door. Angie was on the floor when we walked in. I’ll never forget that moment. The way Dad screamed as he tried to help her. How blue and lifeless she looked. The agony on my father’s

face.

When Angie was better, I wanted to tell her. Right there in the hospital room when it was just the two of us. I was going to say it. No matter what it meant for me. Just when I had opened my

mouth, Everly had walked in. Ruined the moment. And I was too scared to try again. I was a

coward and still am.

“You just gonna stare at him all day?”

I jumped and turned my head to see Dragon. He gave me a smile and tipped his head toward Ps.ycho. I was staring, but my mind was somewhere else.

“Uh, he’s busy, I shouldn’t bother him,” I mumbled lamely.

Dragon raised a brow at me.

“You can wait until he’s not busy,” he replied. “Bly’s with Karma, ain’t she?”

I nodded as I looked at Psy.cho again.

“Okay, I’ll wait,” I said before looking Dragon’s way. “Uh, d–do you have a minute?” I asked, stuttering

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“Uhm, sure,” he replied awkwardly. “What’s up?”

I blew out a breath, trying to shake my nerves.

Claver

“I… I just wanted to say how sorry I am,” I said, rushing the words out awkwardly. “I… I really fu.cked up. Like majorly. Possibly to the point of no return. I know that I deserve a lot more than what I got, and I’m not trying to make excuses. I did what I did because I was a scared little boy. Then I felt trapped in my lies. It was wrong. I shouldn’t have been so selfish. Especially not to the people closest to me. I’m just so sorry that I did this. I should have come clean at some point. I just want you to know that I really am so fu.cking sorry.”

Dragon was silent for a moment while his eyes searched mine. I took Bly’s advice, wearing my

emotions for them to see. Which felt fu.cking weird. I grew up as a goddamn biker. I wasn’t used to

showing any emotion. Finally, Dragon hung his head as he blew out a breath. When he looked at

me again, he smiled.

“Look, I think what you did was really fu.cked up,” he said. “I wasn’t here to see it all, but the way CG

was hurt… You have a lot of making up to do there.”

“I know,” I mumbled, ashamed.

“But I also kind of blame them too,” he continued, surprising me. “I mean, I was the only one who ever said that sh.it wasn’t right or fair or didn’t make sense. When it came to Everly and Alex, you were all blind as sh.it. But when it came to her not coming back… I didn’t believe it. They shouldn’t have either. Maybe if they had thought harder, they could have gone to find her. Found out the truth

way sooner. Before she got married.”

“Psy.cho tried,” I muttered. “Talked him out of it every time. Like a little voice in all their heads, telling them that Blythe wasn’t worth it, that she didn’t want us.”

Dragon gave me a sad smile.

“He should have pushed you away and gone anyway,” he said. “You were dumb, yeah, but so were they. I forgive you, as long as the others do, and I mean the whole club.”

“Pretty sure he’ll have the hardest time with CG,” Ps.ycho said as he slung his arm around my shoulders. “Heard everything by the way,” he told me. “I agree with Dragon. You fu.cked up, but we see how much you regret. You didn’t know what Bly was going through. If she and CG can forgive you, then we can too. And nothing like this should ever happen again anyway. Especially now that you admit you’re in love with her,” he teased me, making the corners of my mouth twitch.

“I really don’t deserve your forgiveness,” I mumbled.

“Maybe not,” Ps.ycho said, dropping his arm and shrugging his shoulders. “But we’re willing to give

it to you anyway, brother.”

“Exactly,” Dragon agreed, grinning.

“Just don’t tell Karma yet,” Psy.cho added, making a face. “Man is hellbent on making you suffer for

a while. Which is why we’ve stayed out of it.”

“Yeah, I gotta scrub all the toilets in the place tonight while y’all are sleeping,” I said, making them

both laugh loudly.

“Do you even sleep yourself?” Psy.cho asked.

“Sometimes,” I replied with a shrug.

“Does Bly know about that?” Dragon asked.

“No, and don’t tell her,” I said. “I barely sleep as it is. Having something to do ain’t so bad.”

They shared a look, but thankfully left it alone.

“Ya know… I’ve noticed one more thing,” Dragon said as he leaned against the wall. “Bly’s been

teasing you more. Allowing you to look at her while she changes, catching your eye when one of us is touching her. She’s getting bolder.”

Hah… he doesn’t even know half of it. The woman literally ordered me to watch her shower and then slowly get dressed. She made me sit down while she put on a fashion show for me, starring all her new lingerie she ordered online. All while she teased me with those electric eyes. She even put on this red leather outfit she had and straddled my lap. I didn’t touch her. I swear that I didn’t. Karma hasn’t given me permission yet.

But she touched me. And she touched herself. When I thought my restraint was going to snap, got off me and laid on her bed. All to spread her legs and demand I watch as she made herself

cu.m.

she

Fu.ck, it was so hot. I didn’t deserve any of it. But I’d gladly suffer through it again and again.

“Lots of cold showers for you buddy,” Ps.ycho teased me.

Dragon smirked like an idea popped into his head.

“You better get Karma and CG to forgive you soon,” he said. “Or things might get worse for you, bro ther.”

This chapter delicately explores the weight of guilt and the slow, painful path toward forgiveness. Evander’s raw honesty and vulnerability reveal the depth of his remorse, showing how much he has grown since his mistakes. The interactions with Dragon and Psy.cho provide a glimmer of hope, suggesting that while the road ahead is difficult, there is room for healing within the brotherhood. The theme of accountability is strong, but so is the understanding that forgiveness is possible when one truly owns their faults.

Amidst the lingering tension, the subtle moments of affection between Evander and Blythe hint at the possibility of renewal and connection. Their complicated dynamic underscores the emotional stakes involved, emphasizing that love and trust must be rebuilt carefully. This chapter closes on a note of cautious optimism, where the characters’ shared pain and tentative forgiveness lay the groundwork for a future where mistakes are confronted, and bonds can be mended.

The next chapter promises to delve deeper into the fragile threads of trust and forgiveness that Evander is desperately trying to mend. As he navigates the complicated dynamics within the club, tensions are bound to rise, especially with members like CG who carry the heaviest wounds. The emotional weight of past mistakes will continue to hang over Evander, creating a charged atmosphere where every interaction could either push him further away or start to rebuild what was broken.

Meanwhile, the subtle yet intense moments between Evander and Blythe hint at a simmering passion that refuses to be extinguished, even amidst the chaos. How their relationship will evolve, especially with Karma’s looming presence and the club’s expectations, remains uncertain. The next chapter will likely explore these delicate balances—between desire, loyalty, and redemption—keeping readers on edge as Evander faces the consequences of his actions and the possibility of a second chance. Check latest chapters at find·novel·net